Our son has beautiful big brown eyes. The kind of eyes that can look right through you. We call them his "Hershey Kiss" eyes. I literally pray for strength to stand up to those eyes.
Yesterday, we were having a serious study on the book, "I Love You Through and Through" when Daylen looked at me and was desperately trying to explain something to me. Like every mommy I acted as if I understood. While he was going through his report of the book I was looking into those brown eyes of his. I saw myself. I'm not just talking about my reflection, I am talking about MYSELF!
Shortly after the book report I laid him down for his nap and I went to my room and knelt down. This is what I prayed:
"Heavenly Father, You know that we are beyond grateful for the blessing you gave us when you gave us Daylen. And You know I come to You often with prayers of Thanksgiving for him. Today, Lord, I come to You for guidance. I saw myself in his eyes today. And Lord it made me realize those perfect brown eyes are absorbing my EVERY move. Help me be the Mommy that those eyes see walking in YOUR path. Make me the Mommy that never brings unnecessary tears. Give me the knowledge to know when those eyes are saying words that are unspoken. Lord...more than anything....Make me the mommy that those eyes will look at with pride!"
Later that day I was doing some laundry when I came to the conclusion that I really don't care what the world thinks of me. As long as I am making my son proud....that is all I ask! And I know that if I am doing things that make him proud I am on the right path to making HIM proud too!
