I won't feel guilty

I am blessed by being a stay at home mommy. This is what I have always wanted to be. When I was a child and someone would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer was always, "A Mommy." I suppose this stemmed from my own mom being a stay at home mom. I never remember a time when she wasn't there. Even in High School I knew if I called home at noon, my mom would answer the phone and be ready to jump to whatever I needed. I loved that. That is what I wanted for my child.

So when the day came when Brian and I decided that we could "make it" for me to be a stay at home mom, I was thrilled. I imagined those days when my child would call me from school and I would hop in the car with the forgotten homework and take off to save the day!

I love it! I love every minute of being the one that gets Daylen out of bed, to feed him breakfast, to be the one he runs to when he falls down, mostly I love being the one that gets to watch him become his own little person. But there are days when I look around the house and I realize that I had done nothing but play with Daylen. I didn't do ONE load of laundry, the dishes are stacked beside the sink, toys are tossed in every direction, and cookie crumbs are sprinkled all over the floor like confetti.

I barely get dinner started before Brian gets home from work on days like these. But I do manage. It never fails that while at dinner Brian will ask, "What did you do today?" It took me a while to realize that he wasn't asking to see what I got done, but to see what we did. Yes there is a difference.

I use to cringe when this question was asked. I hated hearing myself say, "Nothing".

A few months went by until I realized I got more done then I thought. Just because I couldn't see what was accomplished didn't mean it wasn't complete. I showed my son love, I gave thousands of kisses, I did hundreds of hugs, I encouraged imagination, I expressed that my son came before a clean house. So, no I won't feel guilty that I did nothing today, because I know that I got a lot accomplished